Harusnya Ku Cabut Saja

Waking up to kiss you and nobody’s there
The smell of your perfume still stuck in the air
It’s Hard
Yesterday I thought I saw your shadow running round
It’s funny how things never change in this old town

So far from the stars
And I want to tell you everything
The words I never got to say the first time around
And I remember everything
From when we were the children playing in this fairground
Wish I was there with you now

If the whole world was watching I’d still dance with you
Drive highways and byways to be there with you
Over and over the only truth

Everything comes back to you
I saw that you moved on with someone new
In the pub that we met he’s got his arms around you

It’s so hard
So Hard

And I want to tell you everything
The words I never got to say the first time around
And I remember everything
From when we were the children playing in this fairground
Wish I was there with you now

Cos if the whole world was watching I’d still dance with you
Drive highways and byways to be there with you
Over and over the only truth
Everything comes back to you

You still make me nervous when you walk in the room
Them butterflies they come alive when I’m next to you
Over and over the only truth
Everything comes back to you

And I know that it’s wrong
That I can’t move on
But there’s something about you
If the whole world was watching I’d still dance with you
Drive highways and byways to be there with you
Over and over the only truth

Everything comes back to you
You still make me nervous when you walk in the room
Them butterflies they come alive when I’m next to you

Over and over the only truth
Everything comes back to you

(Everything comes back to you)

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Setelah beberapa hari lagu itu dirilis, gue langsung menyukai lagu yang dinyanyikan Niall Horan dalam karir solonya. As usual, akan gue putar lagu itu berkali-kali. Benar-benar berkali-kali sampai eneg.

Gue lebih suka kepada genre-nya yang akustik dan adem-adem kaya ubin musholla gitu.

Setelah mencari tau tentang arti dan makna lagu tersebut, ternyata menceritakan tentang seseorang yang belum bisa move on.

Mengingat tentang susah move on, gue pernah berada di posisi tersebut. Gue tipikal orang yang susah jatuh cinta. And sure, pasti susah juga buat lupain. Bukan gabisa, tapi butuh waktu lebih lama.

Kadang ada aja cobaannya ketika kita udah mau lupain. Kaya ketemu gak sengaja, atau dia tiba-tiba tanya kabar yang sedetik kemudian langsung gue balas. Dan abis itu dia gak bales lagi. Haha. Nyesek~

Pernah baca tulisan seorang teman katanya begini :

"Jangan berharap terlalu tinggi, biar jatuhnya gak terlalu sakit."

Dan gue seringkali merapalkan itu dalam hati dan ingatan gue, sampai-sampai gue selalu melafalkan kalimat ajaib itu ke setiap teman atau siapapun yang sedang "kecewa".

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Tulisan di atas gue buat tahun 2016. Goks! 2 tahun tulisan itu terbengkalai di draft blog gue, dan apa hubungannya sama judul postingan ini? gue juga ngga tau. Haha.